Goodbye for now

Tonight, this distance between me and the people I love will grow a little farther away. I dont know what this trip upstate is going to bring. All I know is I hope when I come back, I will have a better understanding of what I am going to do with the next few years of my life, and who I will invest my time in. This isn't making sense to alot of you, I know, but bare with me. I am tired of dreaming what I DONT want to be dreaming, and tired of lying awake in my bed and just staring, with no clue on what to do or where to go. I guess more is lost by indecision than wrong decision, and hopefully this weekend I will finally decide.

And just incase I don't come back, I mean every year theirs SOMEONE who dies right? Well just incase that person happens to be me, tell my mom and dad that it was me who left the door unlocked the day our house got robbed, tell my sister I love her and I should've been nicer, but raised her tough, and tell my friends, well they know, they always have.

and as for you, I'll be waiting, with the brightest flowers ever imaginable in my hand, and LOOK UP! You can almost see them on a clear enough day, and I love you.