Firefly

What is it about telling someone I love exactly how I feel about them that just draws a blank.

Is it fear? Is it the thought that If i tell someone EXACTLY how much they mean to me they will take advantage of it. They get comfortable, and feel you will never leave them, so they get bored.

I guess it's really a leap sometimes. You really don't know how the other person is going to react, but you have to take that chance I guess, I don't know, this is all sounding very cliche, but honestly....

You are my favorite pair of sneakers.
I dont even want to think about walking if you aren't there with me.

You are beautiful in every sense of the word,
and not because I find you physically attractive,
but you make me feel like EVERYONE is beautiful,
your beauty is one that not only comes from yourself,
but radiates to others,
you make me realize that the entire WORLD is beautiful.

Your touch,
I sit here and wait,
and wait,
and wait for it to return to me.
The way your face just falls into my hands,
it doesn't perfectly fit in,
I have to adjust my fingers a bit,
but when I finally find the spot,
I dunno,
I imagine the feeling you get,
when you make that last twist on a rubiks cube,
and all the colors align,
and everything is together again,
well I guess it's sorta like that.

Your eyes!
Oh your eyes!
It's like I look at them,
and I don't even talk,
ME,
the loudmouth of the relationship who will just not shut up sometimes,
Is silenced EVERYTIME I look into them.
From our first encounter that almost didn't happen,
the first few words I said to you,
your eyes.

The way you make ME feel.
You make me feel good,
you make me feel confident,
you are 100% supportive in everything I do and you make me unafraid.
Unafraid to be myself,
with you I dont have to watch my words,
I don't think about what type of person you want me to be,
or am I being too nice, or too mean, or too playful, or
too anything, because I don't have to think about that,
I can just be.

Above all, You.
I dont know if it's your personality or your traits
or a combination there of,
but you.
Everything about you.
Your unbelievable sense of compassion and love that you have for complete strangers,
your willingness to help those who are invisible to the rest of the world,
your unbelievable ability to express exactly how you feel when you write,
your incredible sense of childlike wonder and creativity,
Your heart is so INCREDIBLY BIG, and the unbelievable sense of love and care that you give not just me but the people around you.

I could go on and on and on, but you know, I'll save the rest for raspy voiced morning phone calls.